I could write in black and white about the miraculous healing I experienced (and I will some day).  Some of you would believe it.  Some of you would not.  Those who have seen the before and after know the truth:  I was supernaturally healed of a chronic medical condition called Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) on October 28, 2018.

I went from DAILY symptoms of lightheadedness and fatigue to none.  That’s right – NONE. There were countless days prior to that fateful date when I couldn’t do anything except lay on the couch thoroughly exhausted praying that tomorrow would be a better day.  Then like a light switch flipped to illuminate the darkest cavern in the greatest depth of the penetrable earth, my world turned right side up.  I awoke to a life of amazing health. Every…single…day from the evening of October 28, 2018 through April 2, 2019 I felt utterly amazing (well when I wasn’t dealing with sleep deprivation, but that’s another story).  My life had changed in an instant.  Each new day was like a fresh new miracle …. a new beginning…birth of a new life.

As April 2, 2019 was approaching fear started creeping in.  You see, I first fainted in 1996.  I battled POTS for 22 years of my life.  But not all those years/months/days involved POTS symptoms.  I can even remember long stretches of time when I didn’t have any significant symptoms as long as I ate like I was a hypoglycemic trying to keep her blood sugar in check.  Somewhere along the way things changed.  POTS became a DAILY thorn in my side.  I had symptoms every … single… day ranging from mild (annoying but I got this) to severe (when with this ever end).  When did it change?  I was recently thinking that it was about 5-7 years ago that things got worse. What was it?  What made my POTS become a daily issue?  Oh no?  Could it be true?  Was it my hip surgery in June 2012?  They do say POTS can develop/intensify after major physically traumatic events such as pregnancy, illnesses, and surgeries.

So as April 2ndapproached fear crept in.  I was scheduled to have the same surgery on my other hip.  The mind is a powerful thing.  When it focuses on the negative it can be especially debilitating.  That date came and went.  My surgeon did his thing and fixed my left hip just like he did to my right nearly 7 years ago.             

My body lived up to my fears.  I had a bad reaction to the narcotic pain medication. For two days I felt like I was reliving my worst POTS days.  I was so incredibly lightheaded.  I was lethargic.  I was scared.  I was irritated. I had to put those things back on – those things I never wanted to wear again – those compression sleeves.  I sucked down electrolyte water like an underage college freshman on spring break (although the beverage of choice would be a little different). 

I stopped one of the pain medications day one of lightheadedness.  I stopped the other narcotic the second day.  Aaahhhh relief came day 3.  Surely it was just a bad reaction to the meds!  But after one blissful day of reprieve, the lightheadedness returned.  Why?  I had not taken narcotic medication for awhile.  I wasn’t lightheaded yesterday!  I’m not even standing up.  I’m not stressed.  Why is the lightheadedness back?  Is my POTS back?  The fear hit me like a ton of bricks.

Then my God, who some would consider to be invisible, made himself visible.  A friend sent me encouraging words and a prayer for peace of mind.  Another friend, who I haven’t seen in years and who had no idea what was going on in my body or head, blessed me with a facebook comment on one of my posts that truly touched my heart.  Then I read my bible.  I’m a few days behind in my one year bible, but the reading I was on had a life application section that completely spoke to me regarding my current situation.  

I prayed.  I thanked God for the many ways he made himself visible to me – through encouraging words from friends (one of which had no idea how appropriate her words were ) and through the late but perfectly timed bible reading.  I prayed that my faith would be stronger than my fear.  I told God that I believed that I am still healed.  He healed me for his purpose.  I know that purpose hasn’t fully come to fruition.  I CHOSE to see the invisible God become visible in my life. I CHOSE to have faith stronger than my fear.

What are you CHOOSING today? 

Are you looking for the VISIBLE God in your life?

Is your faith STRONGER than your fear?

“He drew me up out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, steadying my steps and establishing my goings.”  Psalm 40:2  

“But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.” Jeremiah 17:7